My Dream

I had the strangest dream last night. I was at a carnival place with games where you pay a dollar for a turn and then lose, but you really want something, so you keep paying until you end up paying more for the toy then if you had just straight out bought it. Whatev, anywho, I was playing a game like this for a while and losing badly.
There was a little girl who was a swimmer there. She was a resent orphan. She was really young, like 6 or so, and very small. She was looking for a place where she could go swimming but all of the places she found, she needed an adult to go swimming with her and they would not let her in on her own. An adult counted as someone who is 18 or older. I offered to go swimming with her. So, she began looking for a place to swim. She was afraid and alone and I wanted to protect her. She was small for her age.
This is weird because of the dream that I had a little while back about this same girl. I had the same feelings towards her. Who is this girl? Why do I keep dreaming about her?

LOTR

I watched LOTRs tonight. That is an amazing movie. It made me realise something. Life is a choice. I used to beleive this but somehow the beleif had left me. But now I remember. Your life is a choice. You choose how you feel at any given moment. You choose your attitude. I realised that I need to change the way I feel. I can be happy. I just have to be happy. And it is that easy. I can choose it. It is amazing that I can get this from a movie. Sorda like watching legally blond 2. what ev.

New outlook

Ok, I have a big problem with greed. I want what I want and not what God wants for me. Of course, If God doesn't want something to happen, I will have problems making it happen. It will cause me pain. This is why I feel pain right now. But I can't do this any longer. I want to follow God and do what he tells me to do, but this includes wanting what he wants for me. I have decided today that I am do longer going to go after the things that I want for my lives. If I try for other things (or nothing at all) and I end up getting my original want, then all the better. If not, then I will know that it was not part of God's plan for me.

God is Good.
Life is Good.
Let this new day begin.

Hi,

this is my first post on blog spot. I really don't know why I got another blog. I just wanted to see if ppl I know are on blogspot. I got this blog so that I could track my thoughts with out caring what other people think about me. If I say something that you don't like. I'm sorry, but feel free to comment and tell me. I would love to talk about anything. I will be posting what I feel, and also things that I find interesting. Read on as I post more and really and truely get inside my head.